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  “I did? Amazing, how much restraint I showed in the kitchen, wasn’t it?” she taunted.

  His jaw tautened angrily. “I’m no innocent boy. I’ve had my share of adventures with women. And this morning, I got a good look at the real Nicole White. No, honey, you won’t pull the wool over my eyes again. I’m onto you now. And there’s no way I’m going to be your meal ticket. Neither is Gerald. I’ll see to that.”

  She couldn’t believe what she was hearing. All the growing tenderness between them, everything he’d said last night … After all of that, he could believe her father’s lies, could he? How could he believe that she was just a gold digger?

  “Gerald’s in love with Sadie,” she said, almost in a daze.

  “Is he? Too bad. I guess you’re brokenhearted. So that’s why you turned to me, was it?” he laughed coldly. “And if your father hadn’t arrived, I might still be deluding myself. What a lucky break. One cheap adventuress in a lifetime is damned enough.”

  “Oh, Winthrop,” she sighed achingly. “Are you so afraid to believe what you feel, instead of what you hear? Can’t you take my word for it?”

  “I did,” he reminded her, his tone icy. “And look where it landed me.”

  “My father was getting even,” she said, moving closer. “He was paying me back for walking out on him after Mama’s funeral. It was just revenge. He’s over it now, he’ll tell you the truth if you ask him!”

  “I know the truth.” He lifted his chin as she came closer, and the expression on his hard face was not welcoming. “You’ve been stalking me. I knew it was no accident that you wound up at the corral that day and you deliberately came on to me at the dance last night.”

  “That’s right,” she said sarcastically as she looked up at him. Her heart was breaking and he didn’t even care. “That’s right, all I wanted was to get my hands on your wallet. I never cared a fig for you!”

  She pressed against him and his steely hands caught her, holding her away.

  “Do I make you nervous, big, bad rancher?” she teased, moving as close as his hands would allow. Her eyelashes fluttered at him, her fingers went to his chest and her nails drew lazily across the cotton fabric, making sensuous little scratchy sounds there. His heartbeat increased sharply.

  “No,” he denied. But he was looking down at where her hands were touching him, and something flickered in his dark eyes.

  “Well, you make me nervous,” she whispered. “You make me shake all over when you touch me, and that doesn’t have a thing to do with how much money you’ve got in the bank. And I didn’t lie to you about being innocent, I am.”

  “You and Madame Bovary …” he chided, but his touch had become caressing on her arms.

  “And when we made love in the kitchen, I would have died for you,” she breathed ardently, her lips parted, welcoming, pleading as she looked up into his eyes.

  His hands tightened while he tried to fight what she made him feel. His body suddenly went taut but he couldn’t help it, he wanted that soft mouth under his until it was madness.

  “Damn you, Nicky.”

  “Winthrop.” It was a moan, and he covered it with his lips.

  He muttered something under his breath, but Nicky didn’t hear it. She was lost in the strength of his arms, the ardent hunger of his hard mouth as it moved breathlessly on hers.

  It seemed to take a long time for him to realize what was happening. Her warm body in his arms drugged him. The soft warmth of her mouth, trembling gently as he explored it, made him vulnerable. But minute by aching minute, the past came back. Deanne had once melted like this against his hard body. She’d murmured words of love, promised heaven. And then …

  He eased his mouth away from Nicky’s, steeling himself not to care about the soft accusation in her drowsy eyes as she watched him pull away.

  “Please …” she whispered, and made a move to go to him.

  “No, thanks,” he said quietly. And the very tone of his voice halted her in her tracks. He was as politely indifferent as if he were refusing a drink of water when he wasn’t thirsty.

  She looked up at him with slow comprehension. He didn’t even seem to be affected by that sweet interlude. He was just indifferent. She felt a sudden, sharp emptiness. Was this how it was going to be from now on? Was he so uninvolved that it didn’t require any effort for him to draw away from her? She’d banked everything on his desire for her; she’d seen it as her one way to reach him. But it hadn’t. She’d lost. He didn’t trust her. And now he was showing her that he didn’t even want her anymore.

  “I’m not a gold digger,” she said with what pride she had left. She was trembling, and he had to know it. She wrapped her arms around herself and watched him, like a hurt child. “Money doesn’t matter to me. Surely you can see that?”

  “I don’t know you,” he answered. His dark eyes narrowed as he studied her face. “And maybe it’s better this way. I remember telling you once that we could hurt each other badly. I let you get to me last night, honey, but I won’t make that mistake again. The last thing I want is involvement.”

  “But you said … I mean, I thought …” She faltered, trying to put into words what she’d felt the night before, what she’d thought he meant.

  “I’ve been alone a long time, daffodil,” he said with a mocking smile. “And I’m no saint. A man gets lonely from time to time.”

  In other words, she’d been a nice little interlude with no strings attached, but now it was broad daylight and he’d come to his senses. He’d just proved his indifference by showing her that he could pull away from her anytime he wanted to without regret.

  “That’s plain enough,” she said quietly, studying his dark, impassive face. It was a long way up, despite her own height, and she felt at a disadvantage. “I guess I misread the whole situation.”

  “Just as long as you realize you’ll never get to first base around here, except in business. Get my drift?”

  She should have pasted him one, but she was disillusioned and sick at heart. Her dreams were shattered. “I can’t really blame you for the way you feel,” she said dully. “I should have told you the truth in the beginning. I guess it was a hard knock.”

  “Nothing I couldn’t handle,” he replied coolly. “Don’t flatter yourself too much. A few kisses doesn’t make a relationship.”

  “Oh, I know that,” she laughed coldly. “And just for the record, I was lonely, too. You see, men haven’t noticed me for a long time; not since I had money, in fact,” she said with a cynicism that suddenly matched his. She felt old and world-weary and battered. “Too bad I can’t go home to Daddy and accept that trust my mother left me. That would up my bank balance by about three million.”

  She went to the door and opened it, watching him scowl as her remark registered.

  “Dream on, honey,” he said, but without a lot of conviction.

  “You don’t believe that, either, of course.” She nodded. “Why don’t you ask my father why my fiancé threw me over? The answer might open your eyes.”

  He stared at her for a long moment. “If you’ve got that kind of money, why work for my brother?”

  “Because I got sick of a warped lifestyle where promiscuity and alcohol and pills seemed to replace love in my parents’ relationship! Because I got lost somewhere and went hungry for just a little love!” Tears welled up in her eyes and she set her lips together to try to stop the trembling. “The man I thought I loved walked out on me the day he found out I’d given up all that nice money. And here I am, two years later, being accused of the very thing he was guilty of. You think I’m mercenary,” she said in a husky whisper. She laughed tearfully. “How’s that for irony?”

  He stopped in the doorway to look down at her. His conscience and his pride were at war. “You lied to me once, damn it!”

  “So you can’t ever trust me again,” she returned. “Okay, you’ve judged me and found me guilty. I don’t want your pity. I don’t want you at all. My father was right all a
long—everybody’s got a price. I should go home with him and let him teach me how to buy people!”

  “You’re talking nonsense,” he said curtly.

  “I’m talking sense,” she said on a laugh, although her chin was trembling. “I’ve been chasing rainbows. Thanks for putting me back on the right track.”

  “You’re crying,” he said half under his breath and lifted a hand to catch a stray tear.

  But she jerked away from his hand like a wounded thing, raw from his rejection, sick at heart. “Go away,” she whispered furiously. “I hate you! I hate you, Winthrop! I wish I could leave here tomorrow and never have to see you again as long as I live!”

  He tried to speak, but he couldn’t seem to find words. In the end he turned and stormed off down the hall, smoldering. He was the wronged party, so why in hell did he feel guilty? He didn’t even want to think about how he might have messed up things if she was telling the truth. Surely she wasn’t. She’d lied to him once, hadn’t she? He closed his mind tight. He just wouldn’t think about it. She was another Deanne. He was well rid of her.

  She watched him go with a sore heart. Well, if he wouldn’t believe the truth when it was staring him in the face, who cared? She closed the door and gave up any idea of going downstairs again. She took off her clothes and cried herself to sleep.

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  Somehow, Nicky got through the night. Winthrop had excused himself and gone out to help his men keep a check on the cattle. The snow had made the mountain roads impassable except with a four-wheel drive. The hunters didn’t seem to mind. In fact, they were apparently used to mountain weather and since they were planning a weeklong outing on the ranch, they settled in with easy acceptance.

  Carol, however, became a pill. Nothing pleased her. Her room was too cold, the bed was lumpy, there were no shopping centers and she couldn’t even get a manicure. Furthermore, she missed her parents, whom she visited every few days. She wanted to go home.

  Nicky’s father spent the better part of the second day, in between cleaning his hunting rifle and getting himself kitted out with the proper attire, calming down his playmate. It seemed he had a knack for communicating with Carol, because he finally got through to her that it would be impossible to get out until a chinook blew in. That could be any day, he’d added with careful insight.

  Mary had already told Nicky that the snow could go on for days or even weeks, but Nicky wasn’t sharing that tidbit with the excitable redhead. After Dominic’s comforting statement, anyway, Carol went off into the living room and watched a popular science-fiction thriller until even Winthrop started to grow tired of the film.

  At dawn on the third day, the hunters piled into Winthrop’s Jeep and headed down the valley. Gerald and Nicky worked alone in the study, leaving Carol to her science-fiction habit.

  “I can’t tell you how sick I am of light sabers,” Nicky remarked after the sound became louder in the next room.

  “Sure you can,” Gerald invited, leaning back in his chair. “Go ahead. Then I’ll tell you how sick I am of laser cannons. And then we’ll make silly faces in the mirror and see about renting straitjackets in a matched set.”

  She giggled. “Let’s pray for a chinook.”

  “I’m for that. The Sioux used to have a prayer for it, come to think of it. We’ll ask Mary.”

  She looked at her steno pad. “Winthrop said something to her at breakfast with sign language. Mary’s been teaching me a little bit of signing, so I tried to watch carefully.”

  “I watched for years and never learned a thing,” he confessed. “What did he say, do you know?”

  She smiled ruefully. “Either he wanted bicarbonate of soda or he was melancholy.”

  He frowned. “What?”

  “When you want to express melancholy or gloom, you make the sign for heart and then the sign for sick. It’s really a fascinating insight into another language,” she added. “For instance, if you want to say that you’re disgusted, you sign heart and then tired. The sign for enemy is friend and not. Drunk—” she grinned “—is expressed by making the signs for whiskey, to drink, much and mad. See?” He shook his head. “Fascinating. Smart girl.”

  “Intelligence is this,” she said, touching her right index and middle fingers to her forehead.

  “How about smart aleck?” he taunted.

  “I’m not that good, yet,” she sighed. But she was learning. Already, Mary had taught her enough that she could translate what Winthrop had “said” to her on the porch the morning he’d brought her home from the Todds’. He’d said that he was jealous of Gerald, and that he wanted her very much. How different things might have been if she’d known that at the time. But Winthrop had become a coolly considerate host and nothing more. All the lovely soft feeling that had been growing so gently between them was gone forever.

  “I’m worried about Sadie and Mrs. Todd,” Gerald said abruptly, tapping a pencil on the blotter. “I tried to phone them an hour or so ago, and the lines are down. Sadie had to put their Jeep in the shop a couple of days ago, so I know they don’t have any transportation. I drove by there before the snow started, just to say hello.”

  “Could you get Winthrop to run up and check on them?” she asked.

  “Winthrop is in a snit lately, haven’t you noticed?” he asked miserably, his gaze apologetic as he added, “Your father did a job on your character. Although, to give the man credit, he tried to tell Winthrop it was mostly just bad temper and vengeance. But Winthrop didn’t listen. He walks off every time your name is mentioned.”

  “We had an argument and didn’t exactly part friends,” she told him, without going into details. She didn’t add that Winthrop’s attitude had broken her heart. “You wouldn’t want to go back to Chicago anytime soon?” she added hopefully.

  “Poor Nicky,” he said, smiling at her knowingly. “I’m sorry it turned out like this. In the beginning, Winthrop was so different when you were around. He smiled and laughed and seemed to enjoy life for the first time since the accident. I’m sorry it fell apart.”

  “So am I,” she confessed, feeling her eyes sting with unshed tears. “I guess he’s soured on me because I didn’t tell him who my father was. He thinks I lied to him. And perhaps, in a sense, I did. But I didn’t mean to be devious. I was only trying to forget the past. My childhood was pretty rough, and my mother’s death shook me up. There are so many scars. I guess that’s why I understand Winthrop so well. I have scars, too, and time isn’t all that healing when your emotions have been ravaged.”

  “I guess so.” He got up and went to the window. “I wondered why Winthrop was flirting with Carol. I supposed he was trying to make you jealous.”

  “On the contrary,” she laughed, “he was showing me that I don’t matter. And believe me, he’s succeeded. I wouldn’t go near him now with a whip and a chair.”

  “I can understand how you feel,” he said, turning. “But you have to understand how it’s been for my brother, Nicky. It was several months after the accident before he was even able to walk without a cane, and they’d threatened at first to take off the leg entirely. Winthrop said they’d take it off after he was dead, and he meant it, but he doesn’t realize even now how close it came to that. It took one of the best orthopedic surgeons in the country to save it—and he performed an operation that used techniques he invented as he went along. One of the bones in his lower leg was shattered; the surgeon completely rebuilt it, like putting a jigsaw puzzle together.”

  “He said there were complications,” she probed.

  “His impatience,” he said, confirming her suspicions. “They told him exactly what he could and couldn’t do, and he ignored them and tried to ride a horse the day after he came out of the hospital. He tore the cartilage and had to go back into surgery to have it resewn. Consequently it hasn’t healed as well as it could have. But the doctors said he could get rid of that limp if he’d work half as hard at his exercises as he’s worked at fighting them tooth and nail over t
he manner of his recovery. Winthrop,” he added dryly, “is impatient.”

  As if she hadn’t already noticed that, she mused sadly. “I suppose at the time he didn’t much care what happened to him.”

  “It was the closest I’ve ever seen him come to the edge,” Gerald agreed. “He took chances and pushed himself even harder than he used to in his wild days. Finally I asked him if the stupid woman was worth his life. And that seemed to snap him out of it. But he’s not the same man he was.”

  “What was he like then?” she asked, because she wanted to know everything there was to know about him.

  “Full of fun,” he said. “Reckless, with a devil-may-care attitude, but in a suave kind of way. He liked music and parties and skiing—in the water or in the snow. He was forever on the go. The ranch was important to him, but not in the way that it is now. He left Mike in charge and went out to beat the world. Now,” he said softly, “he just sits up here in the mountains and broods. Less since you’ve been here, I have to admit, but he still has that streak of melancholy.”

  “Maybe he found out that money and glitter don’t wear well,” she said. “I learned it young.”

  “Perhaps he did.” He studied her quietly for a long moment. “It hurts you that he believes your father, doesn’t it?”

  “More than I can tell you.”

  “Give him time, Nicky. Trust comes hard to a man who’s been betrayed. But if the feeling is there, inevitably it’s going to break through the ice.”

  “Think so?” She smiled. “I wonder.”

  They went back to work, but she brooded about what Gerald had said. Would Winthrop eventually come to his senses? Or had it been just a mild physical attraction and he wanted nothing more to do with her? She didn’t know.